Just Some Thoughts....

Oh my gosh I've been a little ball of stress lately. I need to find a way to relax! I'm not sure what's going on with me but lately I can't stop worrying about things. Mostly Drake and Logan. Sometimes I just worry that I'm not giving them all the things they need... I worry every single day that they aren't getting enough to eat and when they do eat that it's not the right kinds of food. I hate mealtime! First I have to try and think of something to cook that I think they will like. Then I make it and most of the time it seems like they won't touch it. I feel like I'm constantly in the kitchen trying to give them bites of this and that, ugh! It exhausting! Then I've also been worried that I'm not teaching them enough. Am I reading to them enough? Playing enough? Talking to them enough?? Sometimes I just can't stop thinking about how it's my responsibility to raise them and try and help them to be good people.

And I'm having some 2nd-child guilt. How there's half the pics and videos of Logan as there are of Drakey. I remember with Drake it was like the world revolved around him and every minute was spent playing with him and showing him new things. And when Logan came along, his needs were eating/sleeping/changing... and still a lot of my time was spent with Drake. Helping him with things and teaching him. I would make Logan happy and content but a lot of my attention went to Drake. But now suddenly Logan seems so grown up and his personality is totally developing right in front of me. And he loves to learn new things, and he needs more attention and stimulation now. But I feel guilty for not giving him more attention all this time... I'm showing Logan toys now that I showed Drake when he was 10 months and teaching Logan songs that I taught Drake when he was just little. It just feels like I've wasted a lot of time. Anyway! That was a lot of rambling! I just needed to vent I guess and I hope I'm not the only one who ever feels this way!

Busy Fall

I am always having to play catch-up with my blog nowadays. I LOVE the FALL and it's been such a fun month. I have to go back to Logan's 1st Birthday with was on Sept 25. We had a superhero party for him and he was so cute. At 12 months he was walking, had 8 teeth and could say dog, cat and good. Since his bday he has added mom, dad and of course NO to his vocab. He is very, very stubborn and gives me major attitude but I love him so much!

The handsome bday boy

With big bro Drakey

His first birthday cake

It's obvious he loved it!!

This is a random pic, but this just never gets old. Good old Drake Washington

This Halloween was so fun. The boys were Buzz Lightyear and Woody. Drake had fun trick-or-treating but it was a little too cold for him. But he ROBBED my mom and dad of TONS of candy. And we went to a trunk-or-treat at Grant's work and they both made out like little bandits. Next year will be way fun when Logan can get in on all the action.

I wanted to get some family photos and it was a little disasterous... Logan kept trying to escape, then Drake would. There was NO cooperation so most of the pics are more candid. And I don't think we got one good shot of all four of us. But we will just have to try again!

Logan, tell us how you really feel about having your picture taken...

I wish it was fall all year round!!!!

Still the One

Today is our 5th Anniversary. I'm so happy to be married to my best friend. I'm still crazy about Grant and love spending time together. We are going to wait and celebrate on Saturday since tomorrow is Logan's first birthday and I'm really excited! Here's to many more anniversaries!

I love you, Grant

Some of Logan's First Steps

Logan has taken steps before but this is the most he had taken at the time. I love how excited he is!

A long overdue update

Grant said to me yesterday "After a month of no blogging and you blog about Patrick Swayze??" Haha I thought it was funny. I really can't believe I haven't posted anything since Drake's bday though... So here is an update!

This is all of our things stored away in the garage. Sometimes it doesn't seem ideal, but we really are lucky to have a place to keep everything.


This night was funny because the boys had been playing all day long and they could hardly stay
awake for baths and I took this pic of them trying to finish their bottles... but I think they both crashed instantly.

Mkay and then this is Grant's latest ambition. He is building a shed in his parents backyard. He thought we could store some of our stuff in it until we find a house and then his parents will have it after we move. When he first told me that he was going to build a shed I didn't know what to say. He has never built anything like a shed before. And I was thinking how do you even know how to? But once again Grant has suprised me. When he wants to do something he studies it and reads up on it and before I knew it, the walls were up... I really admire that quality in Grant, he is ambitious and willing to try anything.

These are a few shots of Logan's hair that I'll be trimming up soon. I needed a good "before" pic for his baby book. I think it's kinds cute long, but if I don't trim it soon Grant will take matters into his own hands. . .

Drake had a bad day yesterday. He was running while pushing this truck all around the driveway and the truck hit a lip in the cement and Drake flew over the truck and landed on his head and got this huge egg on his forehead! Once he recovered he wanted to go back outside only to get scratched by the cat ( I think Drake was trying to lay on top of the cat) But I think he was partly so upset because he loves that cat and didn't see it coming...

I was so sad when I heard that Patrick Swayze died. I've seen Dirty Dancing and Ghost hundreds of times. I think he was such a good dancer and sooo HANDSOME!! I'm way bummed! :(

Drake is 2!!

Drake turned two last weekend... everyone says it, but I really can't believe he is two already. And it's so funny because the day after his bday I swear he seemed older. He is trying to talk more and more and we are loving it. His little voice is so cute and sweet. His most used words right now are "pass" for his paci, "go", "pees" for please, and "maa-ee" for cousin Madison (I think he says Madi for both Madi and Ella though...) Despite some terrible two moments, Drake really is such a sweet little boy, and we are so proud of him!!!

Here are some pics from the partay:)

The birthday boy

That face gets him out of lots of trouble, believe me!!

why make it yourself when costco cake exists? Sooo good

Make a WISH

Logan trying to steal Drake's new car! Actually the car is for both of the boys... but Drake doesn't know it yet :)

Drake got so many cute presents, and of course I didn't get pictures of all of them! He got some really cute clothes, a Mickey book, a fireman dress-up, some big trucks and cars, a Jazz player potato head, a Mickey movie, I know I am forgetting things... but thanks to everyone for such sweet presents, he is loving everything!

I did get a pic of his new Mickey Mouse Clubhouse... Hot dog hot dog hot diggity dog!

Drake's Michael Jackson impression

Some Stuff We've Been Up To...

I haven't blogged for a while so I need to play catch up now. I've been putting it off because I hate getting pictures/videos off my camera/recorder, it's such a CHORE... We haven't done much yet for the summer but we've still been having fun. Here's what's up with us

Granty G- Our biggest news is that we sold our house and we are getting ready to move. We are scheduled to close on July 15th. The bad news is that we will be homeless for a while. Most of the houses we have looked at won't accept any offers that are contingent on us selling our house, so we have to wait until our house is officially sold before we can offer on any houses. SO we will be moving in with Grant's parents until we find a place. Grant also sold his bullet bike to get some extra cash for a down payment. I was so emotional that day. I get really sentimental about stuff. I think it's mostly because he has wanted a bike ever since I met him in high school and he finally got one and I hate to see him give up something he loves. Especially since he was so careful and never worried me on it.


Me- I was very busy cleaning my house spotless almost everyday up until our house sold. I had to keep it clean for showings, and it was a challenge with the babies. And even after we got the offer I had to clean big a couple of days because the buyers wanted to come back through and then again with their family. It was my life... cleaning. And it was exhausting. Now I get to look forward to packing, UGH. My really good news is that I'm officially done nursing. Logan is taking the bottle sooo good now and it is awesome!! The trick for him was sweetening the formula with apple juice and giving it to him with a straw at first. Weird but it totally worked!

Drakey- He is almost two and definitely going through some terrible twoage... He is starting to say more words now. No sentences yet but he will soon enough, I'm sure. He is starting to realize that Logan can be his playmate. Logan was reaching for a toy at the same time as Drake and when they grabbed it at the same time they started laughing, it's so fun to see them together. Drake is a really good big brother. If Logan's crying he is a good problem solver, he will bring him a paci, a blanket, then toys

Logan- He is crawling!! He has been for a week or so. It is good because he can entertain himself for longer but bad because he is a tornado now like Drake. But he and Drake are definitely playing together more now that he is mobile. He is getting tooth after tooth and has been fussy. But I love his little grin! I'm starting to feel that having kids so close in age will pay off soon. I think they will be pretty good friends.

Mkay it feels like I just wrote a Christmas card recap or something! Hopefully I won't get so behind again :) I will post a video of Logan crawling around soon ;)

Now that Logan's getting around they like to do trouble together...

What a FEAST

Tonight after baths, in new jammies. Mmm there is nothing better!

Same with Drakey... all clean and new jams

Cuties

The boys' favorite game to play with Grant. Put EVERY stuffed animal they have in the crib and play in there. Weirdos :)

MMMMMmmmm so good

Lil Logibear

Any excuse to use the cute frog towel. (On the new bedding I got for Drake... I think it's so cute)